A Bucketful of Sweat and Hysteria

HOLY SHITFUCKED POTATOES I KNEW I SHOULDN'T HAVE BUGGED GOD SO MANY TIMES IN A DAY!!!!

Oh. The people called. =)

Not the Goddess herself of course, but to speak to the little cherubs themselves is... *hyperventilates*

Omg they called me in the middle of me just outta the shower moisturizing and I couldn't find my glasses I was practically blind and flustered to beans so I scribbled the date and time of the interview (yes I secured an interview! muahahahah) on Anson's Law of Contract in green Faber Castell highlighter. XD

Well at least they didn't call me while I was shitting, like I imagined.

I see them Monday morning. =)

I don't know whether to be happy or excited or nervous or anxious or floaty or whatever right about now.

*breathes* Why do I always have to be so hysterical. -__-

A freakin' Mary Musgrove.

Whew. At least I know now I didn't kill anyone with my resume. :D

Omigosh!! Fuh. Well anyway. That wasn't too bad. Now all I have to do is pray for Monday. =)

PRAY FOR ME EU SUNS OF BEETCHYES!!!

Thankyew. =)




PS: I swear, think I was born to play either Hermione Granger or Mia Thermopolis; my hair is the size of Texas. So I'm chopping it off tomorrow! Muahahaha goodbye Cousin It. ^^

KAU ORANG SEDUT.

People just keep eloping away from me.

"Yayzers! No Jackie!!! Woot! Yeahhh!"

What's wrong - I ain't good enough for ya, huh? Is that it, huh, HUH?!!

Or what is it then, huh? I stink, is that it, huh?!! *sniffs pits*

Nah. You guys are just MEAN.

*sulks childishly in corner*

Train of Thought

OH MY GAWD IT'S BEEN NEARLY A DAY I'VE BEEN SITTING HERE ALL DAY REFRESHING MY INBOX PAGE AND I DIDN'T GET NO REPLIES WHAT HAPPENED OH MY GAWD DID IT GET LOST IN THE MAIL CAN E-MAIL EVEN GET LOST SOMEWHERE OH MY GAWD WHAT IF A HUNDRED OTHER PEOPLE APPLIED AND MINE DIDN'T LOOK SPECIAL ENOUGH OKAY OKAY MAYBE SHE DIDN'T EVEN READ IT YET OR DID SHE OH MY GAWD MAYBE SHE DID READ IT AND THOUGHT IT WAS SOME SICK JOKE AND MARKED IT AS SPAM OH MY GAWD MAYBE SHE TRIED TO READ IT BUT I THINK SHE HAS A MAC AND I SENT THE ATTACHMENT AS A .DOC DOCUMENT OH MY GAWD CAN MACS EVEN READ MS DOCUMENTS WHAT IF IT CAN'T THEN MAYBE SHE COULDN'T BE BOTHERED SO SHE JUST DELETED IT OH MY GAWD WHAT IF SHE READ IT AND FOUND IT SO FRIKKIN' HILARIOUS SHE ROLLED AROUND ON THE FLOOR LAUGHING UNTIL SHE KEELED OVER AND DIED OH MY GAWD THAT WOULD MEAN I KILLED A GOD THE WORLD WOULD HUNT ME DOWN AND RIP ME APART AND BURN THE PIECES AND I WOULD GO TO HELL FOR IT OH MY GAWD WHAT IF SHE FORWARDED IT TO HER 3576 BILLION CONTACTS BEFORE SHE DIED OH MY GAWD

Image (c) of the awesome Andrew Matthews

OMGOMGOMG

OMG I'm such a drama queen.

But I can't help it.

My heart's drumming a samba beat somewhere in my throat, I'm shaking like a leaf, my palms are clammy, and I have panda eyes from staring at IT for two nights in a row.

Is this okay? What will they think? No, it sounds too peppy. OMG why can't we use emoticons. Is the font size too small? Should I say Miss... OMG I don't know her surname. *bangs head on table* Will it even be her handling this sort of thing? Should it be lengthy or brief? A touch of casual? No, then they won't take me seriously. Should I send it as an attachment, or just include it anyway? OMG what format should I put it in. etc, etc.

I think I have discovered a new phobia: one of rejection.

OMG can die one.

I know traditionally we're not supposed to make deals with God, but I'll try anything right about now.

Dear Lord I want it so, so bad.





I kick myself for being such a neurotic mess.

*breathe in, breathe out*




Everything's gonna be okay. Yeah. *swallows hard*

Whoo.

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On a side note, I ditched Alana today. (Sowieeee!) :(

I must have driven up and down all the levels of Terminal 1 at least 7 times today. I hate the Lembaga Hasil Dalam Negeri people. Hogging two bloody levels.

Dear Lord.

Help me.

I'm freaking out. Pissing in my pants. Hyperventilating. Gonna cry.

For a long time now nothing came my way that mattered very much.

Until now.

And now I don't remember how to handle the pressure! *runs around in circles*

Okay. Stop.

BREATHE.





I can do this. Yeah, that's right. I can! I can do it! I...

*whine*

Lord gimme strength. *deep breath*

Deliriously Happy!

That's what I am.

I know I can get a bit menjengkelkan rubbing my freedom from textbooks in every living organism's face I meet, but bear with me, yeah?

I've been doing this for way long.

Too long, if ya ask me.

*sighs contentedly* What shall I do on my first day of forever* off? Learn Flight of the Bumblebee? Finish playing FFX? Learn some phreaking Chinese? Build that compost shed I've been envisioning for four years? Try out some Southern recipes? Buy RM600 worth of stuff off eBay? Become CEO of Krispy Kreme? Don red underpants and save the world?

Nope! I spent it sleeping. Hahahah. Come on. I'm sleep-deprived.

Well my dreams of a holiday are kinda crushed, won't get to go to Aussieland, won't get to go to Lang Tengah, blahblahblah.

But I'll make it up by traipsing around researching! And working!

Ooh work. Haven't sent in any applications yet but I'm too excited!

How do people apply for this kinda stuff anyway.


"Dear Sir/Madam,

My name is Humpty Dumpty and I am 19 years old. I have absolutely no working experience but I hope you will consid...

OH PLEASE OH PLEASE OH PLEASE HIRE ME!!!!!!!!

Thank you.

Sincerely yours,
Le Humpty."

Oh my gawd I cannot tell you how wonderful it is to tell people to study hard when I don't have to anymore*.

*inhales deeply* So this is what parenthood smells like. :D

All in all, despite my euphoria, I know one day it will hit me that I will miss the people I have left behind. But at least I won't ever regret having known them. =)

*sighs theatrically* Oh well.

I'm so happy right now you could poke me in the eye and I'd still smile at ya. :D

Ahh, Tomorrow! What unbridled joy will you hold for me!

*twirls around like Princess Loopy*




*by which I actually mean, I won't have to look at books until February. =P

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Btw I purchased one of Ain (and her sis)'s handmade bags and it's like so cute lor!

You MUST check out the cuteness of her range although I think she's swamped with orders right now hahah.

So Random!

Behold the epitome of retarded humour. XD

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I was accused of being uncharacteristically happy today.

A couple of months ago I was accused of being anti-social and mopey.

Dunno what you people want, seriously. :P

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AUNT FLO'!!!!!!! *grins*

Skeletons In The Closet

No more lies.

I need to know.

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Tort... went pretty much like shit today. Only answered one question to reasonable satisfaction (you'll know that someone learns Law when they have this habit of using "reasonable" three times in the same sentence). Dang. Last year they said contract was harder thus explaining the number of resitters... Just my luck.

MymouthsodamnsuionebetterIdon'topenitatallnexttime.

I'm actually quite happy, despite my erratic sleep pattern, due to the meds and the cramming, but you know. Don't wanna jinx it. =)

Anyhoo I am sleep-deprived beyond your imagination, so toodles for now~

Zzz